Please allow me to offer my deepest condolences for the loss of your loved one. The Bible assures us that you will see "Ruth" again. John 5:28,29, Jesus tells us that he will call all those from the memorial tombs. We can look forward to a time when death will be no more. Rev. 21:3,4. Believe me death touches us all. However, Jehovah God will give you the strength you need to endure this time of grief. At Psalms 34:18 states that God is close to the brokenhearted; He saves those who ae crushed in spirit. Please visit jw.org for more encouraging scriptures. I pray that you find some measure of peace during this time.